That, what remained mine

Right when I thought I had escaped,
that dark place within.
The place where there is no light.
It's cold in there.

Nothing or no one is yours,
you're all alone
Except, for that black cloud of course,
And the tears, and that corner.
That was what remained mine.

I tried to climb up, maybe it lead to somewhere,
Maybe, just maybe there was another way
just one step forward, i put my numb finger out.
My eyes, they suddenly had the guts,
the guts to reach out and there it was.
The light my eyes had always searched for.

My fingers began to warm up,
my eyes began to communicate with the light.
My legs began to take control,
I began to let go.

The grey cloud, the tears and the corner.
I was back there again,
I curse my fingers for melting the cold away.
I curse my eyes for daring to be polite.
I curse my heart for letting go of the guard.

But the cloud..
That,
That still remained mine.

Betray

Way too often i find myself tossing my hair and fighting with myself because maybe i betrayed myself, maybe i betrayed my beliefs, everything i stood for was just gone when you came, you were everything i would warn my little sister about but yet when you walked in.. i brushed it off,i brushed it all off and without even thinking twice i fell for you... now what? what now? you did this to me,you made me betray myself and i wont ever forgive you for it.